The pain from everywhere and every minute...

It's been a long time...

and this will be my last post...

Well lately, I come to realize a lot of things.

I'm still not mature enough,

I'm still unable to think everything from more way,

I'm still not enough knowledge,

and I'm still unable to feel and vision other people's pain.

Well, I really got a big dream...

*A dream

that is too help every people in this world..

to travel every country in this world and experience their culture and lifestyle

and to share the pain*

But when I started to think about it one more time,

I cried....

Now I'm only realize that I'm far beyond to my goal.

I cried for the people that really suffer a lot since they born into this world..

I cried because other people cant live like I did..

I cried because the environment force them to do things that they really dun want to..

I cried because It's too late for people to realize their wrongs...

I cried because I really cant be a good guy all the times..

I cried because I still cant learn to take others pain

and share with them...

AND NOW,

I'm really cant stay it anymore,

I have to think of new ways to learn the truth,

I'm not going to stop by and learn what are only from the books..

That is the reason why I'm taking the course I'm going to learn...

This is the time I'm really need to be serious..

No more things that really waste my time..

Finally,I'm here to say one thing..

If u really thought that I'm a person that I'm really proud of myself

or a person that really always like to be a SOLO??

Feel free to think about it and say it,

if u really r happy about it,

u can say all of my bad thing or speak some vulgar gossip about me,

tats no problem about it,:)

everything I have done so far,I know the consequences.

But if I'm really did something wrong or said out somethings that will hurt both ur mental and hearth,

I'm  here to say sorry,

Sorry for everything,I did,

Sorry and sorry... if u really want me to apologies and begging u to forgive me,

call me or find me..

 I will do things as u pleased but nt the things that will hurt others

but myself...

I wont care anymore

and I'm really hate myself for being too sensitive about other feelings..

But I have to say it,

 thanks to this senses,

I know wat my dream r...

I won't give up or die

until the dream have come true..

Ya,no more updates

 from now on,

dun expect to see new post again

and start to delete me from ur list.

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Stay happy...

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My last words:

Sometimes dun put ur blame to others,u have to deeply understand everything then u can only judge the guy...

(###HUMAN ONLY ACT IF THERE'S ONLY REASON BEHIND OF IT###)

THX